I just learned yesterday that there is a classroom in a nearby junior high for the kids that nobody want.
These kids are those that struggle, socially and behaviorally. Not enough to actually get an IEP or any district or state programs but they have enough of a pattern of untrackable, undiagnosable behavior problems that they need to be dealt with differently.
Nobody wants to do that. So they give them their own room and pay some poor fool teacher Nine Whole Bucks an hour to deal with them.
I met the man who took this job. Before i knew his line of work, i knew him to be a man who loves god with his whole being. He carries the light of Christ with him in his entire countenance. He and his wife are just good people.
To hear that he has this job broke my heart a little. To hear his pay scale breaks my heart a lot. To know his character and the love this will entail makes me weep.
i may just have a child they put in that room to be dealt with because nobody wants him.
as a mother, it hurts to have the kid that nobody wants. because i want him. i love him. i love him regardless of what mistakes he makes.
God doesn't make accidents. We all fight everyday to get through. Some of us do it better than others. Some of us have big things in our life that come up and we fight and move on. Like me and my cancer. Some of us battle everyday with staying focused on little tasks, being happy and just making it to the end of the day. some of us weren't equipped exactly right to be normal.
But in the absence of normal is usually a funny, unique, amazingly gifted person who can teach us to be more tolerant, more loving and to let go of our preconceived notion of what normal should look like.
Most of us came how we are. God gave us each other to love each other... to want each other. I've come to realize that each is a gift - a life-teacher - someone to help me see things a little bit differently - to challenge my sensibilities.
I'm grateful for people who take these kids on. It's not easy to challenge yourself to see beyond normal and accept these babies for who they are. To see them as children of God who need a little extra love, understanding, compassion, and guidance. It's tough. I know.
I challenge myself everyday.
When the job is done well and you take the child that nobody else wants and open yourself to them, you get a reward that is greater than any other - you learn to love beyond boundaries. You learn to see the world in a whole different range of colors.
You feel the Savior. You know God.
Because that is what He did and what he does.
he loves the child that nobody wants.
no. matter. what.
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